athenejen: (writing)
Well, at least the first draft. Which may or may not require someone fluent in French for some of the dialogue, unless I dispense with that idea. And which definitely requires a beta or two to send it to when I'm done. Ack.

1. Make posts for Children's Book Week. There are so many Children's and YA books I'd like to gush about!

2. Make posts regarding the recent conversation about sexual violence and rape culture (thanks, [ profile] thexpuzzler for the latter link) that's been happening lately. I'd been meaning to make a post about harassment even before this, but for now I'll just say this: safe spaces are important, and support is important, and I am incredibly impressed by and grateful to the many, many, many smart, brave, wonderful women who have addressed this issue and talked about their own experiences.

3. Make posts about television shows or movies or plays I've been watching.

4. Make posts about figure skaters. (Oh, how I wish I could gush about figure skaters.)

5. Watch nearly as many figure skating related videos as I would like to, unless they are [ profile] holiday_on_ice research.

6. And they must be research for the first story, not the one that I accidentally started planning out and writing for a different prompt. I'm not allowed to write that story until the first one is done, damn it.

7. Write any other stories. Really, no.

8. See as much of my family and friends as I would like to... I still haven't called most people to even tell them I'm in town, argh. I still have a couple of weeks, though, so hopefully there will be plenty of time after I finish the fic.

9. Play games. No card games with my family, no board games with my friends, no poking at my tabletop rpg characters, no Sims, nothing.

10. Read other people's stories. Well, at least not more than a tiny handful. I am bad at cutting things out entirely, but cutting down should be possible...

I also really need to stop reading other people's posts about figure skaters or fandoms not related to the story I'm supposed to be writing, but it is very difficult. So I'm not making it a rule. But I should probably buckle down and concentrate! It's much easier to daydream about the story than it is to write it, though. At least I'm above the word count minimum? /o\
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 02:26pm on 30/03/2010 under ,
You are making a mix cd. It is due today. You cannot spend all day watching videos of Brian Joubert. Nor can you watch videos of Stephane Lambiel, Daisuke Takahashi and Mao Asada, Jeremy Abbott, Yu-Na Kim, Adam Rippon, Johnny Weir, or even Evan Lysacek on Dancing with the Stars (one of these things is not like the others). You simply cannot. You can't even watch just one because you know from experience that you'll look up five hours later and still want to watch more. So you can't, damn it. Make your mix cd!
location: Circular Stone
Mood:: 'determined' determined
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1. This line from the most recent ~weekly shiplist my favorite comic book shop sends out: "Also, MARVEL has a new "permanent" title: ASTONISHING SPIDER-MAN/WOLVERINE. Honestly, we have no idea who to give this one to, so let us know if you want it." This was especially funny given that the email started out by listing all the complicated shenanigans involving the Avengers titles name changes and what they were gong to do about subscriptions, detailing exactly who, subscribed to what old title(s), would get what new title(s) by default.

2. Mixing and betaing for [ profile] bandombigbang has forced me to realize that I can, indeed, still read and enjoy MCR fic, at least sometimes. Yay! I expect that my bandom consumption will still stay a bit deflated, though.

3. I am totally in love with figure skating fandom right now. If there were more fic for me to devour I would probably be even more solidly in the fandom, but even just all of the resources and squee over at [ profile] ontd_skating is absolutely delighting me. Hell, I even signed up for the [ profile] holiday_on_ice fic exchange. My signup was embarrassingly long-winded as usual, but I enjoyed thinking about prompts and such so much that my brain seems to be stuck in plot bunny mode. It would not surprise me if a figure skating plot bunny post materializes sometime in the near future.

4. I am still in war mode. That sounds strange. I mean, I'm still riding my recent wave of interest in wartime settings and military things that was sparked by Generation Kill and fed by my Yuletide assignment (god, I still have to write up that Yuletide wrapup post, oops), and enjoying it immensely. I'm in the middle of watching Band of Brothers, and while I'm reserving judgment on The Pacific as a whole until they show the rest, I am definitely enjoying watching it. The guy who plays the poet is damn easy on the eyes, and the appearance of a couple of Wonderfalls actors made me so happy! Actually, speaking of Wonderfalls, I saw Miss Pettigrew Lives for a Day (so adorable!) this past week and fell in love with Lee Pace all over again. And I didn't even realize going in that it was set on the eve of the British getting into WWII! It went well with Connie Willis's new novel, Blackout, which is about time-traveling historians studying the British home front. It was a hands-down amazing read (I devoured it so fast), with the single flaw of actually being only the first half of the story. Luckily the second part will be out in the fall. But I want it now! In the meantime I'll be getting my war fix through the rest of The Pacific and Band of Brothers, and probably re-watching GK and reading more of the book. Hmm. Maybe I'll finally watch Full Metal Jacket to get in some Vietnam. I wonder if I could find something good for the Korean War. Huh. Come to think of it, you could say my interest was actually sparked by that Japanese history class I took in 2008 and all of the fantastic end of WWII and postwar stuff we read and discussed, and then maybe fed by Waltz with Bashir, which is a freaking amazing film, also from 2008, about memory and the 1982 war between Israel and Lebanon. So yeah, I've been on something of a war kick for awhile. So if anyone has any recs for war-related stuff, please hit me with 'em. Any war in any time period, any medium, and any aspect of war. I'm interested in it all!

5. I have added a new reality tv show to my roster of tv shows, bringing the number I follow up to... 2 and a half. I had half a mind to follow Idol after falling for Adam and Kris and Allison toward the end of last year's season, but I'm too lazy to watch it live or commandeer my SO's housemate's dvr, and they don't seem to post full episodes online, so fuck 'em. But that's the half, because at least I tried. I'm keeping up with Project Runway, give or take, and now I seem to be watching Dancing with the Stars. Damn you, figure skating fandom, damn you! It is fun, though. If Netflix had either Dancing with the Stars or So You Think You Can Dance, I'd probably be mainlining old seasons as I type this. It's just... Project Runway and shows of that nature are the perfect mind candy for when I'm interested in characters and talent and ambition and creativity and sometimes beauty without actually having enough brainpower to concentrate on a storyline per se. I think the next on my list is going to be Top Chef. I do love food, after all, and the one ep I saw last year (also the first and only Top Chef ep I've seen) was pretty neat. I did spend one year watching The Amazing Race with an old housemate of mine, but I think it has about an equal chance to annoy me as to entertain me, so it's in the second tier. Plus, I guess I'm just more interested in watching people singing and dancing and making beautiful (and/or delicious or otherwise awesome) things than watching people run around and do arbitrary challenges.

Wow. This list is kind of all over the place. It's sort of... shallow shallow shallow WAR shallow. I guess that pretty much covers my life right now, though. Incredibly fluffy in general, but with these rather prominent (but not usually overwhelming) depressing and difficult bits. But still, hard to complain about mostly fluffy.
location: Circular Stone
Mood:: 'surviving' surviving
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Crazy in love:

1. St├ęphane Lambiel and Daisuke Takahashi and the Chinese pairs as ice skaters, and pretty much everyone in the figure skating community as characters written by the tiny corner of figure skating rpf fandom that I have been swimming about in for the last few days. Now I just yearn for more more more more more fic, as I always do when I first fall for a fandom. I've been having to google a lot, though -- it's been upwards of a decade, decade and a half since I last paid even the tiniest bit of attention to figure skating, so there are lots of new participants to get to know. It's been fun remembering how much I used to love watching people skate.

2. Candy making. I've been experimenting with caramels (a lot of work, but worth it), and Baileys balls (like rum balls only not quite) were out of this world easy and delicious, as were cinnamon-sugar almonds. I think there might be toffee in my future. And more Baileys balls, in white and milk and bittersweet chocolate. And possibly some cookies and brownies and rice krispie bars... *rubs hands together gleefully*

Crazy in hate:

1. I've been a totally irresponsible fandom lurker recently -- I haven't even managed to properly thank the people who commented on the stories I wrote for Yuletide! There's a ton of fic fb I still need to leave from the past month at least, and I've been reading lj so sporadically I feel quite out of the loop. I think that I'd probably be in better mental health if I fixed this.

2. I've been totally irresponsible in my non-fandom life, too. I don't really know how to explain the listlessness and lack of direction; I'm happier than I've been in a long time... it's just that that's not enough to be completely healed and actually functional, I guess. But I think I'll get there. Possibly even soon. I hope.
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 01:49am on 27/10/2009 under , , , ,
On Nov 10, I will be watching Stark Sands sing and dance as Clyde Barrow with only one row of people between us, for the world premiere of the musical Bonnie & Clyde at the La Jolla Playhouse. Yes, that would be Lt. Nate Fick, for those of you from Generation Kill fandom (GK is amazing, both the 7-hour miniseries and the fandom). I am so excited. I almost just deleted the email, because I had vaguely planned to have moved a few states away by then. But then in their little cast profile my eyes caught on his name and by the time I had all of my senses again I had bought a 2nd row ticket to the first show. It only requires me holding on here for a few more days, and I haven't bought my plane ticket yet anyway! And gosh, people, Stark Sands. As a bank robber and lover! *glee*

I also finally bought a ticket for The Airborne Toxic Event at the House of Blues on the 3rd. Sure, it cost about twice as much as the ticket price itself because of all the fees, but last time they were here the show sold out and I couldn't get in even without paying 4 times as much. And I know it'll be worth it, they were a really fun show at SXSW. And I'm curious to see if they've fixed their are-we-following-the-drummer-or-the-frontman rhythm issue. I wonder if The Henry Clay People and Red Cortez are going to be any good. I do like hearing new music, regardless, so.

It would probably be good to force myself to get out of the house more, too. I need to be more inspired to pack and staying in is definitely not working. Ahahahahaha.
Music:: The Airborne Toxic Event (eponymous)
location: Lucien's Library
Mood:: 'happy' happy
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 01:44am on 26/10/2009 under , , ,
You really, truly, do not have to re-read Hunger Games again now that you finally convinced yourself to read Catching Fire and then actually did it. You only read it for the first time less than two months ago. And then you read it again right away. And then you read it again a week later when Catching Fire came in the mail, before you choked and didn't pick up Catching Fire until yesterday because you were pathetically afraid of not having another one to read for forever and ever because Catching Fire just came out in September. And I know you're clawing out your brain with the need to read the next book that doesn't even exist as an Amazon pre-order yet, but just calm down. You're supposed to be packing. Or, you know, writing up your Yuletide requests and offers.

You really don't need to read it again just now (and then Catching Fire again directly after, of course). Do you?

no love,
the part of yourself that has a guilt complex.

P.S. Well, okay. A little love. OMG SO GOOD.

P.P.S. Maybe I will re-watch the pilot of White Collar instead! ♥
Mood:: 'thrilled' thrilled
Music:: Tom McRae, King of Cards
location: Lucien's Library
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If you're going to put all of the special features on disc 2 (out of three) of the season 1 dvd set, for christ's sake label them if they're spoilery! I really did not need to know the face and name of that guy the main character has been searching for just because I watched half a minute of one of the special features. Grah!

In other news, I seem to have having trouble with follow through, especially for things that I'm excited about. I loved Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins and promptly bought the sequel, but I somehow can't bring myself to actually pick it up and read it. I really want to move to a different city but somehow I can't bring myself to pack. And I've been lying in wait for the Yuletide brainstorming post to go up, but now that it has I seem to be avoiding concentrating on putting together an updated list. Grr. I really think grad school broke me.
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Tom McRae, All Maps Welcome
Mood:: 'annoyed' annoyed
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 04:17am on 14/09/2009 under , ,
I enjoyed 1.2, and yet, I am critical; spoilers for 1.1 & 1.2 )

Other things I would like to post about but who knows if I ever will any time soon (I should be pack pack packing, and jobhunting, and organizing, and fussing about money, and all that other delightful administrative stuff that I avoid the plague): Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (2), Center Stage (and my yearning for watching people dance), (500) Days of Summer (and its lovely soundtrack), Bones, Project Runway, Hunger Games (and how it is awesome despite the copyediting issues, and possibly also how I kind of want to cast bandom people into it), Kevin Zegers (aka it's kind of illuminating to re-watch season 1 of House after having watched and/or re-watched many movies in between), broad strokes fandom bashing (grr), Gosford Park (I swear it gets even more amazing every time I watch it), and (always always always) Yuletide. Oh, and how excited I am about the new Monkey Island games (annoyingly, I need to buy either a PC or a Wii, guess which one is more likely), though admittedly this might not be the most appropriate forum. :)
Mood:: 'tired' tired
location: Lucien's Library
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 06:43pm on 09/09/2009 under , ,
LJ has apparently lost the entry I started last week that's a little bit about how I'm back home and in the midst of packing and planning and packing-planning and a lot about many things that make me happy with a chaser of my top ten potential [ profile] yuletide nominations.

But right now, I just have to say that during my (inadvertent) nap this afternoon I had my worst dream involving bandom personages yet -- the other two are here and here, featuring Pete Wentz and Bob Bryar respectively.

about the dream )

Ugh. I hope my next one, if it exists, is at least a little bit less annoying.
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Black Sabbath's Greatest Hits
Mood:: 'annoyed' annoyed
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It is 3:30 am here in California and I am trying to decide what task to work on tonight.

1. [ profile] polyfandomrecs Top Ten challenge reclist, full of bandom non-monogamy fics. Still a lot of work and reading and writing to be done for this, but I am very excited about it. Process is much like how I spend days poring over my music collection to make the perfect mix. Sometimes being vaguely obsessive can be a bit problematic. It's due on the 17th! So I really should keep plugging away.

2. Going through the Comic-con programming schedule and making a huge list of what I want to go to. I am so excited! But that's not 'til the 23rd, so I probably shouldn't give in to my curiosity just yet. But, but... Comic-con! Hard to resist!

3. [ profile] lissa_bear asked me questions! I should answer them! Except I have to cliff one of Bob, Patrick, and Christian Kane, and I just can't decide! My life, so hard.

4. Figure out what I'm sending my recipient for this gift exchange thingy I'm doing off the bpal forum. Fun! And time-sensitive! But will probably go in fits and starts.

5. Peruse the Generation Kill Porn Skirmish and think about writing one. The actual writing will probably want to wait until my copy of the book gets here, though -- hooray for used books. I'm sad that I'm so broke that I can't buy the tv series itself, though. But I have to save all my money for moving and Comic-con, so.

6. Make some kind of introductory post. Hello, new friends. :)

7. Try to fix my sleep schedule by going to bed right now. Ahahahaha.
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Mercury Rev, All Is Dream
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
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1. Iron & Wine thrumming beauty and calm at me. The transition between The Creek Drank the Cradle and Our Endless Numbered Days when I listen to them back to back is especially soothing.

2. The opening of [ profile] bandombigbang posting! I am eagerly awaiting the fics I betaed and mixed for, but in the meantime, I have started perusing, though only bit by bit, because I'm distracted by resume-revising and the pure, gen, multi-band future-fic delightfulness that is [ profile] tigs's Snapshots From a Possible Future, which I have been savoring slowly. The only bigbang fic I've read so far, Your Grievance by the brilliant [ profile] iphignia939, made a huge impression on me. Gorgeous, fraught, and a worthy conclusion to the two fics that began her Hellgirl AU (linked at the beginning of the fic). Main pairing is Pete/Patrick, with an absolutely kickass William and several other bandomy people floating around.

3. These terrifically fun Cobra Starship text icons by [ profile] katierawr.

4. Up. Seriously in the running for my favorite Pixar film, and given how much I adore basically everything Pixar's ever done, that's saying a lot. Though, if you're anywhere near as susceptible to on-screen emotion as I am, bring tissues! Lots of them! Not that it's not uplifting, of course.

5. Knowing that I get to see my SO for my birthday. Long-distance is not my favorite thing in the world, not by a long shot.
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
location: Parental Palatial Palace
Music:: Iron & Wine, The Shepherd's Dog
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 04:17am on 17/05/2009 under , , ,
As has probably been clear from my complete lack of recent posts, I'm kind of on hiatus from fandom as I attempt to deal with the fact that I've decided to stop going to grad school, which means I need to find a job and also I get to rejoice in therefore getting to move away from San Diego. Somehow, this has led me to wander about the country; since my last post I have been to Austin, Chicago, the Bay Area, Los Angeles, and Hawaii, and now I'm in Minnesota. I have gotten to see Leonard Cohen, Fall Out Boy and Cobra Starship, and a stupid number of bands at South by Southwest, including such highlights as Amanda Palmer, Shearwater, The Duke Spirit, and The Airborne Toxic Event. I also saw the new Star Trek movie with my family this past Friday, and enjoyed it immensely. Embarrassingly enough, I'm two episodes behind on Supernatural but hope to catch up soon. Tomorrow I get to see Fall Out Boy and Cobra Starship (and the rest of the Believers Never Die Part Deux tour) again. Maybe this time I'll actually write up a detailed concert review. Maybe.
Mood:: 'odd' odd
location: Parental Palatial Palace
Music:: Morphine, "Buena"
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 01:47pm on 23/01/2009 under , ,
In which I flail a little about the race discussion and about how deeply disappointed I am in some of the people involved, primarily one particular beloved author )

(Note: Please don't metafandom. I just... couldn't not say this. This is a response to reading through some interesting and well worth reading accounts of what happened and following some of the links back -- admittedly coming from a particular set of perspectives, but ones that I'm trying to learn more about -- that kind of astonished me given how intelligent and insightful I found one of the catalyst posts, [ profile] deepad's I Didn't Dream of Dragons.)

In other race-related news, if you haven't watched [ profile] kita0610's Photo Essay No, She Will Not Love You Long Time, do. My thoughts (and her response) are here. It's loosely about the portrayal of Asians in the media, and seriously, it made me cry. Watch it. Please.

ETA: [ profile] coffeeem/Emma Bull's apology. It is appreciated.
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Tom McRae, All Maps Welcome
Mood:: 'resigned' resigned
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brief reaction to SPN 4x12, aka Criss Angel is a Douchebag ) But my sharpest, most distinct reaction? I kind of wish I had made more of an effort to catch a Cirque show last weekend while I was in Vegas! It just might've been Criss Angel's Believe (well, probably not, but it would at least have been a possibility), and then I'd know for myself the truth of that statement.

It does seem likely, though, doesn't it.
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Tom McRae, Just Like Blood
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 03:24am on 01/01/2009 under
Sometimes it feels like you're stealing large chunks of it, but mostly, you've given me a space for creativity and indulgence and happiness. Thank you.

Happy New Year, everyone! May your 2009 be everything you wish it to be.
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Mood:: 'happy' happy
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 05:25am on 05/11/2008 under
I am so disappointed in you.
location: Lucien's Library
Mood:: 'angry' angry
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 12:33pm on 04/11/2008 under
So. I have my political beliefs, but after 2000 and 2004, for my own sanity I've been trying to avoid thinking too closely about the elections. I gave money, especially to No on Prop 8 (Obama losing will make me sad, but if Prop 8 passes it will make me homicidal), but until I opened my mail-in ballot this morning I hadn't really thought about all of this in-depth since the primary. And then, as I read [ profile] synecdochic's (really interesting) prediction on when the election will be called, I found myself crying. The thought that this we could really get this. I just.


In 2004 I had just moved to California to start a grad degree. The 2000 election upset and frustrated me, sure. But the 2004 election, the 2004 election made me unbearably sad. There was just one modicum of comfort.

We're not living in Maoist China. This may seem obvious, but. That fall, I was taking a class about the period. After the election, every time I went to class, I thought: even after all this disaster, I am so grateful to be here, now, with my one vote, and with the right to deliberate and discuss and express all manner of opinion regarding it.

I'm going to go turn in my ballot now. If I'm lucky I'll make it out of the polling place before bursting into tears.

ETA: Oh. Oh, wow. I'm not sure I've this proud of one of my elected officials since Senator Paul Wellstone of Minnesota died. And certainly the first time I've felt this way about a Republican. Jerry Sanders, the mayor of San Diego (a Republican) annoucing his support of gay marriage, explaining his decision not to veto the City Council's decision to support it. I realize this is old news, but I hadn't seen the footage until now. It really is a very affecting, heartfelt speech, and worth watching if you haven't.
Music:: The Arcade Fire, Neon Bible
location: Lucien's Library
Mood:: 'grateful' grateful
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 12:42am on 31/10/2008 under ,
So, we get home from [ profile] marinarusalka's after our usual highlight of the week (dinner and Supernatural (currently with a side of Burn Notice and the game of "let's watch the last 5 minutes of Smallville and try to fathom what we see on the screen" -- this game was more fun when the last five minutes usually included lots of Lex, but hey, Justin Hartley's hot, and I like Lois, and the complete crackity nature of the show makes trying to guess what the heck could possibly be happening pretty darn amusing), hard to beat that), and I have a little time to kill while waiting for a friend to call. So I check lj and read some episode reactions, of course. I tab them all open, start from the far end of the line, read, and click closed.

A small bit of talk about SPN 4x07 here; beware, spoilers )

Anyway, I'm reading all about Supernatural, when suddenly I click away a window and the next one that pops up is my google search from earlier in the day (incidentally, I really like today's banner -- happy Halloween, everyone!), on "China nuclear propaganda film." Sure, I've been having some issues with my grad program (I just wrote "problem" there, ha), but sometimes? I love my life.

Now if only I could find my devil horns...
Mood:: 'busy' busy
location: Lucien's Library
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 07:49pm on 12/06/2008 under
I have just realized that I will be out of the country for the summer and in a place where I will not have access to livejournal. Therefore, all of my grand rec list plans may have to wait until I get back, alas. If you need to get in touch, I should still be getting email at this username at gmail dot com, and I think comment notifications may still work, so please do drop me a line and say hi if you feel like it. I'm sure I'll be thrilled to hear from you.
Mood:: 'busy' busy
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: The Dresden Dolls, The Dresden Dolls
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 09:21pm on 05/06/2008 under , , ,
I wonder if bandom is taking over my brain specifically in response to my end-of-term insanity? As a diversion or something. I'm going to be up all night grading as it is, but all I really want to do (besides go back downstairs and continue watching The Adventures of Brisco County, Jr. with [ profile] marinarusalka and [ profile] eowyns) is write up the huge (like, ~25 fics huge) intro-to-bandom recs set I was up until 3:30 am compiling the links for last night. And then, in the ~4 hours of sleep I did manage to get, I'm pretty sure my dream-self spent most of it flirting with Bob Bryar. *facepalm*

At least he was flirting back?
Mood:: 'busy' busy
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Bethany & Rufus, 900 Miles