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I did a report on him in fifth grade; I think I picked him because he was the one people almost never talked about (I was pretty obsessed with the Continental Congress around that time -- I had a Scholastic book about it and also one about the US presidents that I read over and over). And I discovered that he was kind of a dick (well, I probably wouldn't have put it in exactly those terms at the time, but the fact remains), but an effective dick, the kind of dick a fledgling government needs if it's going to survive, because someone has to do the practical dirty work and deal with the overwhelming, necessary bureaucratic crap of it all. I wasn't sure if I liked him, exactly. I have mixed feelings about his legacies, even more so now that I understand more about the world, and obviously he had some personal flaws. But I couldn't help having a soft spot.

Which probably contributed to me crying my eyes out multiple times today, these huge wracking sobs, as I finally got around to listening to Hamilton for the first time. So many different emotions. (It's been a while since I had a good cry. I probably needed it.)

Governing is harder. Living is harder. He did his best, and he paid the price (so many different kinds of prices, for both the successes and the mistakes), and he kept going, and he got things out of it, and so did the people (and nation) around him, for better or for worse. What's more human than that? (Plus, I'm the daughter of immigrants. Immigrant stories are close to my heart.) And I am basically in love with the Schuyler sisters, because yes.

My mom (who is full of awesome; this is but one small example) decided that what she wanted for her 70th birthday was a trip to NYC to see Hamilton. We managed to snag some tickets, and it's not for months yet, but I'm so excited. ... I need to remember to bring tissues. A lot of tissues.

(ETA: Also, hello everyone! It has been far, far too long since my last post. I am still reading. I hope to get back to posting and interacting more. I have no idea if I'll manage it.)
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Dear Yuletide Writer )

Lost Coastlines (Song) )

莊子 | Zhuāngzǐ - 莊周 | Zhuāng Zhōu )

Rivers of London - Ben Aaronovitch [Note: I have tried to avoid any specific spoilers for Broken Homes] )

Gosford Park (2001) )

The bottom line is: I like a huge variety of stuff (and am all in favor of experiments, creativity, and unusual things), I'm harder than usual to squick, and I'm willing to try almost anything. Please just enjoy the writing, and I know I'll have fun reading it. :)

much love,
[ profile] athenejen
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Dear Yuletide Writer )

Lost Coastlines (Song) )

The Tricksters - Margaret Mahy )

Sports Night )

Gosford Park (2001) )

The bottom line is: I like a huge variety of stuff (and am all in favor of experiments, creativity, and unusual things), I'm harder than usual to squick, and I'm willing to try almost anything. Please just enjoy the writing, and I know I'll have fun reading it. :)

much love,
[ profile] athenejen
location: Round the Bend
Music:: Okkervil River, "Lost Coastlines" (in my head)
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 03:35pm on 25/03/2011 under ,
DVR report: It's still winning.

A couple days back it decided that I really didn't need to watch that Ducks @ Stars game, I must've just been kidding. Though I guess I should be grateful it didn't give me televangelism instead, like it did for an NHL Overtime earlier in the week. I really don't think my obsession with hockey is going to be the thing that causes me to burn in hell, DVR, and it turns out I don't actually appreciate your concern, either.

Fandom report: Still obsessed with hockey. Cam Ward has taken up residence in my head. Going to a Texas Stars game tonight, should be fun.

Have also been thinking about/reading in: The Eagle, The Social Network, Sherlock, Hawaii Five-0, White Collar, Merlin, Community, Dresden Files (though tricky as I'm not caught up and prefer to avoid spoilers), Justified, and figure skating. Among other things. Oddly, for three of those, I haven't even watched the source material yet.

Life report: South By Southwest kicked ass. quick rundown )

It was great to have company for the adventure. I am still exhausted, but it was worth it. Before that was moving-house chaos; some unpacking and such still to do. Busy busy. But for now, I nap. :)
location: Temporary Storage
Mood:: 'sleepy' sleepy
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1. Dim sum! And they even had chrysanthemum tea! Served, exactly as it should be, with a little dish of rock sugar. *swoon* (It is strangely difficult to find in the US, so it is very, very exciting to know that there is a place nearby that has it!) Deliciousness. ) Definitely going back there.

2. [ profile] antumbral's Hockey RPF (Blackhawks)/Generation Kill fusion-crossover ficlet (also here), in which Duncan Keith is a spotter, Patrick Sharp is his sniper, Patrick Kane is their driver/communications guy, and Jonathan Toews is (of course) their fearless leader. It is just so ridiculously pleasing. ♥

3. Yes, I'm still basically in the process of falling in love with hockey. I watched half of 24/7 Penguins/Capitals: Road to the NHL Winter Classic (only half because the Housemate twice (twice!) deleted the first two episodes before I had the chance to watch them) and it was awesome. I have had to start actively preventing myself from spending all my time reading articles and blogs (and re-reading fic), because there are a lot of things that actually need to get done this month (we're moving, among other things; there is a lot in my life to be stressed out about, at the moment), but it's fun to know it's all out there for me to absorb when I have the chance.

4. Porn Battle XI is coming! :D Prompting will start tomorrow and run through Friday, January 21st, and the dates of the actual battle are Sunday, January 23rd to Thursday, February 3rd. [ profile] oxoniensis has more information up here and here. All fandoms welcome! Come post some prompts! (See the FAQ for info on how to format them correctly and all that jazz.) I have started my brainstorming list for prompts, but got a little distracted by a fic idea, so I still have much to do. Possibly I ought to make sure to prompt something that the fic idea would fill, because my desire to write the scene that's been on repeat in my head for the past few days has gotten pretty strong. Two hockey players, one figure skater, 2010 Winter Olympics, happy shiny super-porny ménage à trois featuring oral sex and instructional dirty talk -- should be fun, if I can make it work!

5. Shearwater is still one of the best live shows I have ever seen or ever will see. Never fancy, just them and their many, many instruments (all of them played between 3 to 6 instruments over the course of the show), but breathtaking, engrossing, charming, intense, and so, so gorgeous. They performed The Island Arc (Palo Santo, Rook, and The Golden Archipelago) all the way through (with 10 minute breaks between albums), seven people on stage (if I remember correctly the previous two times I saw them they usually had five people) all playing with total commitment. I am a little bit in love with Jonathan Meiburg, I think, and his voice. I am definitely in love with his band. Just incredible.

Um. *cough* That was a lot of hockey, wasn't it. I might be a little obsessed. But it's not the only thing I'm thinking about! I have been also contemplating a lot of other fandomy things! )
Mood:: 'happy' happy
Music:: Psychostick, "The Hunger Within" (in my head)
location: Circular Stone
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 02:57pm on 20/09/2010 under , , , ,
[ profile] kat_lair tagged me, and I obey. Well. I eventually obey. ;)

"If you’ve been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new question. Tag eleven people. Don’t refuse to do that. Don’t tag who tagged you."some random stuff about me under the cut )
location: Circular Stone
Mood:: 'cheerful but a bit anti-social' cheerful but a bit anti-social
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 04:37am on 04/03/2010 under ,
Well, shit. What is going on with My Chemical Romance? They split with Brian last year, which seemed inexplicable and upsetting enough, and now this. I am having a very hard time processing that Bob is no longer part of the band. Certainly it doesn't help that there's been basically no explanation, just a frigid little corporate-speak statement.

I have no idea if it's better or worse that I stumbled upon the news while listening to The Black Parade. Now I'm no longer making a mix cd, no longer writing up a roleplaying character, no longer thinking about playing the Sims. I'm just trying not to cry while listening to Famous Last Words; I Don't Love You already got to me -- it's not even one of my favorite songs on the album, but of all news to read while listening to it... Maybe it's foolish to care so much (first world problems, yadda yadda), but I am okay with being foolish about music, and I am even more okay with being foolish about attachment.

Selfishly, I realize that I should have tried a LOT harder to make it to that second LA show last summer. I guess I'll never get to see them live in this incarnation after all (which I suspect very strongly is the incarnation I will forever love best).

We'll see what happens, I guess. But for now, I think I'm going to let myself have a bit of a wallow.

*listens to The Black Parade again* *and again* *and again*
Mood:: 'sad' sad
Music:: My Chemical Romance, The Black Parade
location: Circular Stone
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 06:05am on 25/12/2009 under , ,
I don't know how I keep being lucky enough to receive more than one Yuletide fic, but at least this year I wrote more than one? I was trying to pay back some karma, you know? But my gift fics are both so fucking wonderful, I'm not sure that plan worked!

It's fascinating, the two fics are actually from the same fandom, and a tiny one at that -- "Delilah," the Dresden Dolls song. I mean, talk about your small canon! But they somehow manage to be incredibly different, while still both fitting the song perfectly.

Never Met A More Impossible Girl is a snapshot of Amanda and Delilah's friendship after years and years of what we hear in the song, honest and brutal and smart and resigned and tired and emotional. The rhythm of the text is gorgeous, and the second-person pov voice shockingly convincing. These two women and their relationship feel real. ~1000 words of personal history and steadfast love and suppressed despair. Beautifully done.

Have The Night, The Morning Too, meanwhile, runs with the idea that part of Amanda's bitterness is intertwined with her own feelings for Delilah. This fic takes a perfectly-paced arc from Mandy and Delilah's first meeting to... well. A resolution. And it evokes all the feelings in between so palpably, I found myself with tears spilling out of my eyes at the end, but it crept up on me so slowly I hadn't even noticed tearing up. It doesn't shy away from the painful truths (neither of these fics do, which is something I adore about both of them), yet feels hopeful at the core. And I love these characters, they feel so real, and like people I would be friends with. 4k+ words of friendship and miscommunication and love and desire. I don't have the words to explain how brilliant this is, how warm and absorbing and true. It just is.

Everyone should read these two fics (and give the authors feedback!), especially anyone interested in the complexities of female friendship. Such wonderfully drawn relationships! I love them both so much. So much. My heart is just aching with love.

In other news, at least one of my recipients seems to love her story, so I'm happy! Even if that's the only comment I get this year, it is enough.
Mood:: 'exhausted but happy' exhausted but happy
location: Parental Palatial Palace
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 01:49am on 27/10/2009 under , , , ,
On Nov 10, I will be watching Stark Sands sing and dance as Clyde Barrow with only one row of people between us, for the world premiere of the musical Bonnie & Clyde at the La Jolla Playhouse. Yes, that would be Lt. Nate Fick, for those of you from Generation Kill fandom (GK is amazing, both the 7-hour miniseries and the fandom). I am so excited. I almost just deleted the email, because I had vaguely planned to have moved a few states away by then. But then in their little cast profile my eyes caught on his name and by the time I had all of my senses again I had bought a 2nd row ticket to the first show. It only requires me holding on here for a few more days, and I haven't bought my plane ticket yet anyway! And gosh, people, Stark Sands. As a bank robber and lover! *glee*

I also finally bought a ticket for The Airborne Toxic Event at the House of Blues on the 3rd. Sure, it cost about twice as much as the ticket price itself because of all the fees, but last time they were here the show sold out and I couldn't get in even without paying 4 times as much. And I know it'll be worth it, they were a really fun show at SXSW. And I'm curious to see if they've fixed their are-we-following-the-drummer-or-the-frontman rhythm issue. I wonder if The Henry Clay People and Red Cortez are going to be any good. I do like hearing new music, regardless, so.

It would probably be good to force myself to get out of the house more, too. I need to be more inspired to pack and staying in is definitely not working. Ahahahahaha.
Mood:: 'happy' happy
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: The Airborne Toxic Event (eponymous)
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The Virgin Suicides is my usual ultimate example of this; Air crafts something delicate and shimmery and beautiful that wends its way deep through Sofia Coppola's wistful (not quite the right word, but frankly I have no idea if the right word even exists in English) narrative and helps the whole film become like a heart-stoppingly gorgeous insect trapped in pulsing, glowing amber.

But I think Mysterious Skin gives it a run for its money with the dreamy, shoegazey soundtrack Robin Guthrie (of the Cocteau Twins) and Harold Budd put together, which includes generous dollops of Slowdive. For whatever reason, this is exactly the right kind of music to layer onto something so fucking painful it's reluctantly, staggeringly beautiful (beauty is the wrong word, completely wrong, it's like the flipside of it, the horrific & the distressing), such that you can't look away, you can't ignore it, you'll remember.

Let's just say I desperately want some futurefic, something more than the one story in the Yuletide archive.

Speaking of Yuletide! The current fandoms I'm most likely to nominate, with some thoughts & statistics (embarrassingly, this is even the condensed list -- see more extensive brainstorming here):

this list got rather long )
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Regina Spektor, "Us" in my head, from the (500) Days of Summer soundtrack
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aka: Listen, Don't Say Shit Like That To Him, People Can Hear You

Project Runway Season 3 )

Rose Red )

It's a Boy Girl Thing )

10 Things I Hate About You (the movie, and a little bit about the new tv series) )

Random thoughts that seem to belong here despite being neither netflixian nor yuletidian:

Ritter Sport chocolate bars are delicious. I especially like the whole hazelnut bar and the butter biscuit bar. According to their website they have a king-size bar that's biscuit & hazelnut, I wonder if anyone around here is selling them. I mostly see the std size bars in stores. Which is probably good because that might be too much chocolate even for me. Anyway, they are amazing. Cheaper than a lot of the other European import chocolate, really solid and filling, and just darn yummy.

Also, I am kind of in love with Green Day's video for "21 Guns." I adore its almost-but-not-quite black & white sepia-toned look, and something about it reminds me strongly of a different song -- in a good way! --something older, a classic, but I can't quite figure out what. At first I thought it was Neil Young's "Only Love Can Break Your Heart," but there might be something even closer. *ponders* This happens to me a lot.

I also think the song would make for a great Glee number. :)
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: (500) Days of Summer soundtrack
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In four different media forms. :)

1. The three new My Chemical Romance songs that we currently know of. [ profile] fleurdeliser has a wonderfully convenient round-up here and the amazing [ profile] rossetti has the whole concert here. talk talk talk )

2. Fruits Basket (aka Furuba), a manga by Natsuki Takaya. which is adorable )

3. The tragic love story of Billy Talent and Joe Dick, of Hard Core Logo. I love Billy the most (Callum Keith Rennie is fiiiii-ine), but I also have a soft spot for Joe and his drama and John and his bipolar philosophical ramblings. And I really, really, really want the soundtrack.

4. The proliferation of Leverage fic. I should probably try to put together a reclist in the near future rather than listing things off randomly here, but for now, check out the most recent [ profile] polyfandomrecs list, here. Leverage just makes me incredibly happy.
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
Music:: Ray Lamontagne, Trouble
location: Lucien's Library
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Because slowly, I have come to realize that if ever I think that some other bandom person might be my favorite, I stumble across something like this (Patrick Stump singing and playing the blues; there are four little clips of him -- beginning, end, and two interspersed), and I realize that though FOB is only my second favorite of the bandom bands (MCR being the first, if that's not obvious; I can tell my high school self would've adored them, so that pretty much means I have to adore them, that's just how it works), even Bob Bryar (drummers are fucking hot -- see also: Brian Viglione) cannot overcome Patrick Stump's insane talent and adorability. Seriously, so hot.
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Shearwater, Rook
Mood:: 'awake' awake
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 02:34am on 10/06/2009 under , ,
[ profile] bandombigbang is not just a bonanza of fic, it's also a wonderful source of mixes. This year, I got my act together in time to make one! I chose The Shape I Found You In (by redbrickrose, though I didn't know that at the time) from the list of summaries (back then it was titled something different that inspired the mix title) because I really loved the line It's an exhausting thing, sometimes, being loved by Ryan Ross. It's even more exhausting when you love him back. This, despite not so much being a Panic person (I mean, I like them as characters and all, they're just not my first choice out of bandom, or even really my second). But I am a sucker for the "best friends turned lovers" storyline, and the summary made me quite sure this would be a fantastic version. And it was! Reading (and re-reading, and re-reading) the whole draft was an absolute delight -- it has an intense feel to it that I can't explain properly, but it's wonderful. So go read! Possibly while listening to my mix, even. ;)

Here's the tracklist -- includes Morphine, Tom McRae, Wilco, James, Belle & Sebastian, The Airborne Toxic Event, War Tapes, Jeff Buckley, M. Ward, Midtown, Joan Jett, Ghost of an American Airman, Moby, Yoav, The Arcade Fire, Bonnie Prince Billy, Future Bible Heroes, The Magnetic Fields, and Explosions in the Sky. )

Enjoy! All feedback extremely welcome, but not required. :)
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
location: Parental Palatial Palace
Music:: Iron & Wine, Our Endless Numbered Days
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1. Iron & Wine thrumming beauty and calm at me. The transition between The Creek Drank the Cradle and Our Endless Numbered Days when I listen to them back to back is especially soothing.

2. The opening of [ profile] bandombigbang posting! I am eagerly awaiting the fics I betaed and mixed for, but in the meantime, I have started perusing, though only bit by bit, because I'm distracted by resume-revising and the pure, gen, multi-band future-fic delightfulness that is [ profile] tigs's Snapshots From a Possible Future, which I have been savoring slowly. The only bigbang fic I've read so far, Your Grievance by the brilliant [ profile] iphignia939, made a huge impression on me. Gorgeous, fraught, and a worthy conclusion to the two fics that began her Hellgirl AU (linked at the beginning of the fic). Main pairing is Pete/Patrick, with an absolutely kickass William and several other bandomy people floating around.

3. These terrifically fun Cobra Starship text icons by [ profile] katierawr.

4. Up. Seriously in the running for my favorite Pixar film, and given how much I adore basically everything Pixar's ever done, that's saying a lot. Though, if you're anywhere near as susceptible to on-screen emotion as I am, bring tissues! Lots of them! Not that it's not uplifting, of course.

5. Knowing that I get to see my SO for my birthday. Long-distance is not my favorite thing in the world, not by a long shot.
Music:: Iron & Wine, The Shepherd's Dog
location: Parental Palatial Palace
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 04:17am on 17/05/2009 under , , ,
As has probably been clear from my complete lack of recent posts, I'm kind of on hiatus from fandom as I attempt to deal with the fact that I've decided to stop going to grad school, which means I need to find a job and also I get to rejoice in therefore getting to move away from San Diego. Somehow, this has led me to wander about the country; since my last post I have been to Austin, Chicago, the Bay Area, Los Angeles, and Hawaii, and now I'm in Minnesota. I have gotten to see Leonard Cohen, Fall Out Boy and Cobra Starship, and a stupid number of bands at South by Southwest, including such highlights as Amanda Palmer, Shearwater, The Duke Spirit, and The Airborne Toxic Event. I also saw the new Star Trek movie with my family this past Friday, and enjoyed it immensely. Embarrassingly enough, I'm two episodes behind on Supernatural but hope to catch up soon. Tomorrow I get to see Fall Out Boy and Cobra Starship (and the rest of the Believers Never Die Part Deux tour) again. Maybe this time I'll actually write up a detailed concert review. Maybe.
location: Parental Palatial Palace
Music:: Morphine, "Buena"
Mood:: 'odd' odd
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 02:45am on 01/02/2009 under , ,
Okay, then. I guess I'll just have to make sure my trip to MN overlaps with May 17th, because I apparently had to have a ticket. Because the combined power of Fall Out Boy and Cobra Starship (the top two bandom bands I'd like to see besides My Chem, which will always be at the very top of that list) was just too great for me.

I had to fast-talk myself out of buying tickets for two of the other shows -- the 4/7 San Jose show and the 4/28 MA show. The 4/28 show is just too up in the air, because while I do have one other reason for being in MA the first weekend in May, I also have a reason for being in MN that very same weekend, plus if I'm somehow not in either of those places, I'd probably go see Death Cab here on the 29th. But the 4/7 show is actually right in the window of me thinking about taking a trip up to the Bay Area. I just don't know for sure if I'm going to do it... But the redundancy of having a ticket to two different shows would be very comforting! Plus, it would be kind of cool to see one early show (it's the 3rd show of the tour) and one late show (the last show, even!).

Oops. I think I just convinced myself to buy a 4/7 ticket, too. *facepalm*
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: Tom McRae, All Maps Welcome
Mood:: 'amused' amused
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 10:24am on 04/04/2008 under ,
My musical heart is having a bit of a rollercoastery day, and I've only been awake for about an hour! On one hand, I have Dresden Dolls tickets for their May 22nd San Diego show and I'm so excited I could scream. Seriously, it's been over a year since I saw them, and I was just musing recently about how much I missed it. (In the 8 months I was in Boston after first hearing they play at a local science-fiction convention in 2004, I saw them 2-3 more times. I've seen them... 3 times since then? I think. They don't get out to CA as much as I'd like.)

On the other hand, My Chemical Romance show reports are starting to pop up, and while I love reading them and I'm happy for everyone who gets to go, I'm also still not emotionally reconciled to the fact that none of the dates fell out in a way to let me make them. I'm in the Midwest for a wedding for most the CA dates and the others were constrained by classes, and the Pennsylvania show that some of my Boston friends are driving out to almost coincides with an event I'd consider flying out for anyway, but there's just no way I can miss attending seminar and teaching discussion section on the Monday in between. Just no way, unless I lie through my teeth about what I'm doing and make all sorts of annoying arrangements, and just, no.

I don't usually miss having a steady 10-6 job, despite all the craziness of grad school. There have been plenty of ways that school has given me a more flexible schedule. But in this particular instance, it kind of really sucks that I can't just ask for a vacation day.

On the other hand, I get to see the Dresden Dolls in a month and a half! Yay!
Mood:: 'all over the place' all over the place
Music:: The Dresden Dolls, Yes, Virginia
location: high school memories
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posted by [personal profile] athenejen at 01:46am on 12/01/2008 under ,
Went to see the San Diego Symphony Orchestra tonight for the first time. They were actually quite good! But as they were performing their beautifully rounded and well-blended rendition of Mussorgsky's Pictures at an Exhibition (Ravel orchestration), I had this sudden intense desire for orchestra RPS. Which rapidly turned into a sudden intense desire for symphony orchestra AUs, because I'm not currently following any given real-life orchestra closely enough to be able to desire specific fic about it. (Though back when I had a BSO subscription, that might have been a possibility... except then, I was almost too close to it because I knew people who sang with the Tanglewood Festival Chorus regularly, and sang with the Holiday Pops one season myself, and at that point it becomes a bit weird. On the other hand, it was fun speculating on the logics and politics behind personnel shifts, as well as on how the musicians related to each other based on their on-stage interactions. We had cheap third balcony side seats that afforded us magnificent sound and a very good view of the wind section, you see.)

Sadly, though, I'm not sure I know of any symphony orchestra AUs at all. In any fandom. I'm not picky! About fandom, anyway. I'm sometimes picky about other stuff. But it seems to me an unfortunate lack. There's so much potential for drama! And musicians are (very very very) hot.
location: Lucien's Library
Music:: "Pictures at an Exhibition" in my head
Mood:: 'cheerful' cheerful